Highs and Lows

OMG Like all things I do, I jump in with both feet not bothering to look right or left!! Optimism or bust. Well I'm a little busted tonight. I had two days of joy, and even drove the car. I baked, cooked, and flooded the basement. I left the tap on in the basement sink downstairs , yup with the stopper on, and our beautiful new house will need a new floor in the basement. I wasn't even on pain killers; just dumb luck. Frank says I am now his official "putz". Great.
I stopped writing for a few days as I now seem to think that writing well is needed. I will try to create full sentences for your reading pleasure and put apostrophes where needed. Frank says I have a problem with your and you're, as long as you know, I told him, that I am yours.
This has been so emotional,this battle and surgery and Breast Cancer business. I have a scar on my breast and my son has even received a few scars from me as well . Next time I ask him to do something he will probably do it right away. Boy I can yell. Its his first trek into this unknown land as well, and he is a trooper. He is doing great at school, getting his Bronze Cross in swimming and just being an Angel. I love that child with all my heart. I really didn't yell that loud.
I got the blasted drain out of my breast yesterday had my first shower in two weeks today. That was so great. The drain is a tube they leave in you to drain excess fluid in the breast. It's not pleasant walking around with your body fluids hanging around your waist. Whatever it takes to get better however you do. Speaking of the waist you see more of it when a breast is gone, my waist is the shape of a Bell!!
You know you can forget, for minutes even a few hours, that this has all happened. The pain is gone, you no longer need percocets, just Tylenol, you can shower, cook, and then you move the wrong way or you catch a glimpse of yourself, panic sets in. Well for this gal it tends to. I have said before I have been living my life like I'm running out of time. Now all I want is time. Time to heal, time to dream, time to listen to those who want to talk. My father used to say " do your best today because this day will never be here again." Well, despite the ups and downs of today, I guess I will sign my name to it.